Am I that cruel a person?

I felt like my past life was one of a dark and mean and cruel life. And now, I pay the price.

I would've just killed myself, for all these petty matters that seems to be happening so often now.

For all those sadness, and depressions, and all that I wish of I could not have.

Happiness never lingers. It comes and goes like a rainbow after a rain.

But its because of these rainbows I see in the sky, life won't seem so dreary for me.

I try to live on, so I can see these rainbows that makes me smile.

And tell me that I'm worth it.