Tuesday, October 27, 2009

A taste of summer

Sometimes, I could be really terrified of losing everything.
The things that matter most, and the time that was being stolen away.
The smiles, and the stiffled laughters...

Sometimes, when everything else falls...
You stand up and say : " Hey, there's always a rainbow at the end of the thunder "
But it rains and rains and you wonder if the rainbow ever comes.
Then night falls, and it stops raining.
But you can't see the rainbow anywhere.
Just endless darkness being stretched out like dark cloth.

How could we seize the moment, when the moment isn't there anymore?

How could you want someone, when they aren't yours to keep?

How could you believe in yourself, when you aren't what he wants?

How could you say he's not worth it, when you've already fallen for him?

So silly, to listen to the answers to these questions.
But they weren't answers to begin with.
They are opinions by people who wouldn't know what loving someone is.
Because the people who knows the real answers to them, can't answer them at all.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

It's Graduation ' 09 '

Don't even ask me what on earth were we doing

Graduation day was hell awesome.
Although there were a few worried moments.
I want it to happen all over again.
Sejarah is making me go crazy.
But here's the video anyway if you wanna see it.

Later people.
Working crazy hard on sejarah.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Sunny with a chance of ice-cream

Life is perfect... so far.
Although I'm still quite bummed out about the broken earrings.
They were my favourite, and meant something to me.

I've finally got my dress.
Well.. not actually.
I am on my way to get it tonight.
Mum was nice enough to allow me to sell away the remaining one.
Anyway, I can't wait for practice sessions to start again.

I wish I could just play with them forever.
Being in a band is quite an experience. :)

So, walked around 1 u the whole day. My feet ached like hell.
Watched cloudy with a chance of meatballs.
the crowd were laughing their guts out.
Especially the guy behind me.

He is always laughing before people started laughing.
It got a little annoying, but hey.. what the hell.

I'm prepared for graduation.
not exactly looking forward to it.
Its the last day after all.

Bye world!!

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Sure as the dawn brings the sunrise

I am really really addicted to watching barbie shows.
Yes, I know.
My inner childishness is resurfacing. Though I'm not sure whether it's a good thing or not.
Graduation day is next friday. So soon already?? Yes it's that soon.

And there'll only be 21 days to SPM.

I can't help but thinking about it all over again.
Although it seems that I have almost moved on.

Stubborn aren't I??

It's always the same words over and over again.
The grief coated words... like reruns, playing and repeating again and again.

So many things have happened and I don't know how my heart could hold on to all this.
The only solace I could find, was to be amazed at how much I could take.

Sometimes, the pain would be too harsh on me.
And I could be so sick of crying.

But there is nothing else I cold do.

But to hold on, and wait for the light of the day.

I would not complain. For I could not bear to burden anyone else.

This rock is mine to carry.
Eventhough it tires me too often at times.

I know, or I just keep telling myself.
I will be there to see the light of day.

I still cannot shake your face off my mind.
Your absence is one I could not take.

Thursday, October 8, 2009


Time is running so short.
Sleep is not a necessity anymore, because everytime I close my eyes, everything becomes so clear.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Empire of the sun

Honestly I'm getting much old. I'm gettin hazard and growing lots and lots of pimples. Not that I was much better off before anyway. Stress is really getting to me. But how could I not worry when suddenly I feel like my days are being numbered and I just refuse to study at all. Sleep has deprived me of my time and the dark circles below my eyes are intensifying. I feel like some kind of rock weight like burden coming down on me. Stubborn stubborn I really am.