Monday, April 23, 2012

Work tomorrow

Project one officially completed.
Now to a more tedious task o project two.
Two done, three more to go !

So I'm off for a chanel event tomorrow, working as a server for a private event.
So excited to be working tomorrow. 
After all, its for chanel's fragrance!

Thursday, April 19, 2012

where do I go from here?

I went to see my agent today and I talked more than I should.
I was feeling a little scared when I heard what she explained to me.
Where did all my courage go?
Wasn't I suppose to embrace living alone outside, on my own?

Maybe I am really scared. I'm not sure what I should do, or where I should go.
Do I stay safe? Or do I take the risk and make it for the best?
I'm tired of being alone. This time, I don't want to be alone again.
The agent was really nice and she explained whats best for me will never be near.
I have to be brave enough to venture out.

I have so many things on my mind right now.
And it's time I take the leap, and decide. 

Wednesday, April 18, 2012


Monday, April 16, 2012

Lost my sense of direction

So what has everyone been up to?

Have been running around the whole day from centrepoint to damansara and then to ikea.

So many things to be done, but can't be done all at the same time.
That annoys me the most.
I'm looking for answers to these worries on my mind and I can't do that without meeting her.

I can't believe I have to wait until tomorrow.
And I can't believe that you did it behind my back.
I'd always have this bad feeling it wouldn't work out.
In the end it didn't.

And THAT is a sad fact. But it's okay I guess.
I'm more than just rambling to myself. Not completely sure with what I'm saying.  I hope everything works out right.
You want your future with someone else, it's fine with me.

picture of the completed bracelet.
A Mermaid's Dream                                                

Saturday, April 14, 2012

ongoing mini projects

an ongoing project revolving around my gorgeous star
involved in two unfinished projects for now.
Can't wait to complete both.

Friday, April 13, 2012

new love?

Meet my new love.
Trust me. It looks even more beautiful in real life.    :)
She gave me a pair of earrings when I ordered them.

I swear you have to visit her blog. She makes the most gorgeous jewellery.
All of them are handcrafted and every piece is unique !
whimsical and quirky

Meeting just now was somewhat interesting. Managed to catch up with lecturer and club members.
Am totally in geared to start bartending again.
Can't wait for the next workshop. 

days begging to end

So I have not been up to anything recently.
There's not much to blog about. Except that we went to college to have dinner yesterday.
Was just me, mum and my sister.
Food wasn't that good but it was satisfactory.
Have to go to college later on to attend some club thingi with Karen.
Will try to find something exciting to blog about. LATER !

Monday, April 9, 2012

the Blair


New love!
Blair inspired ring from Diva

I absolutely love the sparkle !

I need a job

I find that adding pictures of yourself on your blog increases readers.
Whether that's a good way or bad, I'm not too sure. 
But I'm on my way of finding out.

So here is my attempt at a scary doll-like picture.
*refer to picture above*

Heading off to college tomorrow to assist Karen with a project.
I need to collect my recommendation letter and results too.
At least, I am somewhat satisfied with my result. somewhat.

Stay tuned !

Saturday, April 7, 2012

a spark in your life

Picture taken during graduation ceremony !

New hair
and new manicure.
Done by yours truly.

There's so much drama ongoing at home.
And at times, I honestly am not sure how I should deal with it.
There's so much indifference going on, I'm not sure what's the next step
I should take.
I'm so tired of being angry all the time.
And I'm tired of being so sad.

Friday, April 6, 2012

I feel like holding you down and drowning you with all the words that you've said to me.
I choose not to fight back. I choose not to burst at you with rage.
I choose not to scream at you with all the venomous words I could ever find.
I choose to remain still. And I choose to hold it down all inside.

I hate you so bad. And you wonder why you and my sister have it bad.
It's you, not her. It has always been you.

You blame me for everything. You choose to believe that I was wrong, that I never listened.
Well, I hope you'd wake up one day and finally admit you are wrong.
You are selfish and egoistic. And I hate you. 

Thursday, April 5, 2012

some advice

To you,

You're young and there's so much about the world that you don't understand.

You get mad at every single tiny thing and then you blame the world for how it has happened to you. You're young and you've already started swearing like an adult who is trying to keep his family together all the while working so hard to earn the money that keeps his family alive.

You complain about the littlest things and you think like the whole world has a grudge against you when it is you who has placed the guilt on yourself. You're young and you can't take the comparison given. You may be who you are, but what harm could come upon you if you'd just make some small changes to improve yourself to your own benefit. People do not hate you. What makes you think of it that way?

Getting angry all the time is so tiring. And it hurts yourself, and it also hurts others. Even if you're being selfish, is being sad what you want? People are different from you, and not everything goes your way. The world does not revolve around you only. The world doesn't even revolve around the most powerful man on earth !

There's so much to learn out there. And there's so much to take in. So why can't you open up your heart and try to see things from a different perspective instead of your own only. Look through other's eyes, walk through other's shoes. Try to stop and listen.
Maybe you'd taste the deliciousness of the coffee instead of staring at the ugly cup.

Learn to grow up. There is so much more to worry about. You're still young and getting reprimanded at doesn't mean the whole world is ending. It just means the pain you feel after falling down, so just get up again.

Learn to take responsibilities and learn to care. Learn to understand how much other's have sacrificed for you. Learn to be more open, more caring and have more faith in other people. You'd see that deep down, there's just so much misunderstanding.

Post graduation updates


Yes !
I finally watched The Hunger Games.
I love the story line and the acting but the filming was terrible.
Had a massive headache and I was constantly trying to prevent myself from puking.
Didn't understand what made me so dizzy but they way the film was showing especially all those fighting parts, it made me feel like vomiting.

I felt so uncomfortable the whole time.
Love the show, but I won't be watching the next one.

Everyone has been raving about Team Peeta & Katniss, which in short became PeeNiss.    
But I am all about Team Katniss & Gale.
I will be watching Avengers soon !

So my days have been pretty much filled with on outing after another. 
And I did my hair.   :)
Dad is still pretty much contemplating on whether I deserve the iphone.
Have been in and out of kl for almost 3 times in 5 days now.
I seriously need  break.
Feels weird not attending college like the usual.

My movie marathon is still on.
So many more movies to catch up on.

I have a new idol, the actress for Katniss Everdeen from the hunger games!
Read articles about her regarding her weight and her "chubbyness" but she refuses to care.
Am proud for someone like her to stand up against the anorexic images that people seem to notice.
She is strong and beautiful.
and she is absolutely perfect.
Josh Hutcherson needs to grow a wee bit taller.

Till then !

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Les Palmes !

 whats been going on these few days,

I'm officially a very very VERY proud student of Taylor's

my mumma is as lovable as always !

The Marc Combes Award for Top student.
That trophy was shit heavy !

What I've been eating for lunch during examination week.
Shihlin = extremely delicious stress food



Darling went shopping for me.
Got a extremely creamy eyeshadow at Sasa.
For RM10 !

much loves.

My kitchen and accomodation and upselling was pretty much screwed up during the exam.
I had kitchen exam on Wednesday and results were announced on Thursday. 

I swear at about 4 that Thursday afternoon, I was a bunch of nerves. 
I was gripping darling's hand and shivering.
Tears were welling up in my eyes, and everything was a blur. 
Each name called out was a shock to me and I was so so scared I didn't the cut.
I thought I told myself that I wouldn't aim that high.
Truth is, there was a goal set in me already. And I wouldn't settle for anything lower than that.

Anyways, after the names for Very Honourable Pass was called, my "family" was already screaming in our seats, and standing up to hug each other in tears. 
We were ever so proud of ourselves, crying and hugging each other with pride. 

I swear, that day couldn't get any better.