unlalafied

Currently not in the mood to do anything somehow.

Updates so far today:
- am bored bored bored!!!
- just finish studying one chapter of form five sejarah
- I cannot believe I just studied sejarah
- going to cousin's christmas party later
- am currently crapping now cause the day is so boring and theres nothing else to do
- somebody save me!

Now its a whole different story isn't it?
A entirely different matter unable to salvage.
And its dust wanders among the ashes, not knowing which is which.
Those long yearnings, aching for someone to bring me back into being...
To be whole again..
To be who I once was...
To be able to erase these haunting memories that no longer holds comfort within.
To be able to run away.. to a place where I could start anew..

To be able to relive that sunken memory, to bring it back to life
To turn back time...

Kau membiusku dengan cinta
Cinta yang malu kukatakan
Kau membiusku dengan cinta
Sampai aku tak bisa berkata

Kau membiusku sampai aku jadi sering melamun
Memikirkan kita bisakah bersama

Aku dibius Cinta
Cintamu yang tak ada tandingan
Namun mungkin tak bisa
Entah ku tak tahu

Kita yang malu hati untuk mengakui saling cinta
Usaha sekeras hati bersama selamanya
Aku dibius cinta

Kau membiusku dengan cinta
Cinta yang malu kukatakan
Kau membiusku dengan cinta
Sampai aku tak bisa berkata

Kau membiusku sampai aku jadi sering melamun
Memikirkan kita bisakah bersama

Aku dibius Cinta
Cintamu yang tak ada tandingan
Namun mungkin tak bisa
Entah ku tak tahu

Kita yang malu hati untuk mengakui saling cinta
Usaha sekeras hati bersama selamanya

Kita yang malu hati untuk mengakui saling cinta
Usaha sekeras hati bersama selamanya

Aku dibius cinta
Aku dibius cinta
Aku dibus cinta

With you, desire becomes irrelevent

hello people!!
much awaited gwen is back from penang.
not like theres much to wait about. =]

Okayy.
Penang was a little boring and when we arrived into my grand mother's house, the plastic carpets were missing. AHHHH. not good. not good at all.
Was not use to walking on the cement floor with those eroded holes on it.
Ended up wearing my cousin's big chicken slippers. hahaa??

My cousin Ying ying and husband.

My cousin and wife Sharon

Anyway, I was suppose to meet up with Khei Qi and Wenqi they all, but last minute, my plans changed. Didn't have enough time to go Queensbay cause my niece and nephew were coming.
So me and Sharon Jiejie(my cousin's wife) ran into Queensbay mall, get stuff from the shop she works in (The natural source), run in aldo, and ran into Mango and out.

Had a nice dinner at some fancy hotel. Wasn't really feeling well so I didn't eat much.
Brettany as always, was being a handful.

Owhh.. yeap. I cut my hand whilst watching some scary murder, kidney ripping movie. =]

Monday, went to the market in the morning. The market was located by the sides of a main road. It was scary dodging all the cars.
Later we stopped by Gurney plaza in the afternoon. Looked around for stuff..yada yada.
then we had KFC for dinner. Never go out without a jacket when you are wearing sleeveless. Those air-cons in the shopping mall can really numb you. I was practically freezing my butt off.
Not that it really fell off or something like that.
Was a little bored when mum was buying clothes. So, what else is there to do when you have a camera phone in hand. =]


Lets see... Tuesday..
My cousin Yingying came to my grandma's house. We went to the beach near Batu Ferringhi.
Couldn't go swimming cause Brettany was there. Afraid that she might get a heat stroke. Sat by the sand dunes and watch the people water ski. I wanna go too!!!
Wednesday, we went to visit my mum's cousins which makes them my second cousin. They all stay in this really remoted area. Its like this really big colony of cousins.
then at night, we went to the night market near where my ah yee stays. Its so much better than the SS2 market I tell ya. hahaaa.

So I'm back here again. Tired from the long bus ride from Penang. Too bad I didnt bump into Hong Ling. Might have shown her penang though. =]


I am in love, IN LOVE I tell you, with this song.
Dibius cinta.
I know its in malay but who cares.
Its an awesome song!!
Owhh and Yinky.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY. Sorry I couldn't attend your sweet sixteen pool party. =]

The niece and nephew

I was hoping so hard, wishing upon the heavens that I will somehow see you again.
Because with you, my desires become irrelevent.
What I want or don't does not seem to matter anymore.
Only your absence stands alone.

Still drowning

Am still in penang passing the time like nobody's business. Going to come back soon... I hope bus tickets are still available.

Had we finally parted in ways we never would have thought?
Had we all finally moved on from then?
Had you all planned to go on without me from day one?
If so, who were you before?

Had you all not realise the absence hurts?
Had you all not realise I was there looking all the time?
Had you all not realise I was still here longing for our old gossips and hearty talks?
Why is it so painful then?

Was I still there after all?
Or you have finally found ways to push aside the ignorance.
Was I suppose to do something,
or rather just sit there and wait.
But you will never come.
Am I on my own again?

Audrey and Yvonne

Surprise surprise, its a wonder I'm not

Shall list my daily updates again. =]
1. Still praying hard I will be back in time for Yinky's splashin sixteen.
2. Still praying hard I might be able to go to the beach in Penang.
3. Hoping for a coincidental bump with music peeps in penang, which is highly unlikely.
4. Still thinks that people driving me around is better than driving.
5. Thinks Taboo is a very jumpy kind of game. The part where it makes you stumble over these few words. "you know, you know, you know" I know you're laughing Khei Qi and Wen Qi.
6. Am ever in debt to KY whom I have been boring lately due to my busy schedules and lame talks.
7. Surprised, or did not surprise Low Mei with a cake.
8. Never ever stand out in the wind holding a cake with FIFTEEN SMALL candles. Wen Qi and Tze Wei, they have big candles for a reason. Humour me.
9. Never stand in the middle of a condo looking up at a balcony holding a cake. People might stare.
10. Low Mei's cake became undigestable because of that pink layer of candle wax.
11. Low Mei Yen does not find people stripping in the middle of a condo area interesting.
12. I am still in love with my blog layout. =)
13. I am still in love with my miniature clay thingis. Picture above.
14. I have to help Hong Ling spread to the world that she is taking off her braces in two weeks.
15. I am STILL in love with Gong, right?? hahaa
16. Camera phone flash can be stupid at times.

there.. sixteen updates in coordination with my sixteenth year.
ohh.BTW, Happy Birthday Low Mei yen.. teehee

I still wonder about those impetuos decisions i have made in my past that led to indiscernible results.
Does the difference matter so much now??
Despite all my best efforts in putting the damn past behind me, it comes even more often.
Taking away a piece of me each time.
When will it go away.
Even though you do not realise how much this hurts me.
Please set me free.

After a storm, will it still a blue day?

Hello.
Recent updates bout today.
- Went to OU to watch BOLT with peeps today.
- Had snacks at Chilis. We (five people) shared a bowl of bottomless Tostadas chips, and we never refilled.
- I still miss hanging out with them. =(
- I bought a pastel purple nail polish. At least that cheers me up.
- I still think a pink shop is irrational.
- I think that BB foundation in Skin shop is ridiculously expensive.
Read after me... RIDICULOUSLY expensive.
- Shah Alam Ah Yee's Christmas party is pulled forward to the 20th.
- Sasa's workers scare the hell out of me. Not like there's any hell in me either.
- I want to watch House Bunny.
- I fell in love with Hong Ling's poodle. =]
- Michael Jackson's moves are WAYYY cooler than shuffling.
- I still want to eat Korean BBQ
- I still sorrow over those matters that did not seem to mean anything anymore.
That word still lingers around me, and I'm unable to rest.
Had it meant so much to me, these insignificant words from you?
Had time move so fast, and so far?
Was I unable to catch up with the past that still haunts me?
I still stand there alone, letting my thoughts flow with the soft breeze that floats by.
It still hurts deep inside.
I want it to stop... so badly. But I don't know how.

Today as it is

I cut my hair today.
Nothing else to blog about.
Dad is leaving for Greece tonight.
Still miss the times I spent at Miss Beh's place.
Meeting up with peeps tomorrow.
=)

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