i have loved you for a thousand years

It's been so hard to blog lately.
It feels like there's just not enough time for me to do anything else.

In a blink of an eye, 7 weeks just flew past me.
And in another 3 months, I'll be graduating.
I don't know what I am going to do, and I can't anticipate what is to come.
For a moment, I feel lost thinking about my future.
Nothing is set on stone, nothing is of concrete plan.
For awhile there, I feel helpless, wondering if this is what I want to do.
I wonder if anyone else feels the same.

I've been thinking lately, 

besides the never ending deadlines that seems to chase me  everyday.

I've been thinking about you,

and I've been thinking about the past. 

I wonder how do you live now,

and I wonder if you are happy. 

I wonder if you still write, and if you still remember.

I wonder who are you with now, 

or which lucky girl seems to cloud your thoughts now. 

I wonder if you till read the books that I read, 

or listen to the songs that were a hit during our days. 

I wonder if you have plans to go abroad, 

or if you are afraid of not knowing how you're future may be,

like me. 

I wonder ... and I do still wonder ... if you remember me at all. 

in time

                                                    

                                                    

Made my passport and missed class for the first time in almost two years. haha.
Missed my law assessment and have to resit tomorrow morning.

Rushed to college today after making my passport and went to watch in time.   LOVE !
awesome awesome movie.

Not much to blog about besides meeting up on Monday morning to finish up group project and had crazy spaghetti buffet lunch at Plaza Kelana Jaya by the lake.   :)
Projects and assessments are due next week and the week after that.
I'm going crazy with all the deadlines and submissions of paperwork.
Mum on the other hand is rushing me to apply for uni.

Yes, I'm going crazy and I'm still trying to make time for dancing classes.

Spent a bomb on a bag recently and for now, I have to live below the lines.
Still no regrets. The money was worth it.

Can't wait for the upcoming family trip next month. Wish me luck !

the ever plain usual

watched paranormal activity 3 today in cinemas.
Won't post the poster like I always do.
Because unless you wanna live a longer life, I suggest you do NOT watch this.
It was a very disturbing, horrifying, and fucking scary movie.
I swear the director has like some kind of disturb personality or something.

Will be working tomorrow for Westin under catering for the PGA golf tournament.
COOL ! will be working in double leveled marquees.
It is going to be one hell of a crazy week.
work on both days, table setup and f&b talk on Monday.
Then, dinner service and routine practice on Tuesday.
I am going to be the ultimate living zombie of Taylor's.

Will be stressed out about imcoming events, and assignments one after another.
Update soon!   MUAH !

till now

it feels like my whole world is thrown back on repeat.
i won't go through all of it again.
and just to come out of it feeling more disappointed than ever.
it's a sick game. and i won't play it.

i don't want to feel like i wasn't good enough.
i don't want to feel the need to compare myself
and i don't want to feel like i need to make myself fit for you.

i don't have to explain myself to anyone.
neither will i agree nor disagree to your opinions about me.
i won't jeopardize my life right now just to play along with you.
stop assuming, because it will never go according to your plan.

you

hello love. it's been a while.    :)


I've been busy with so many things lately it's crazy.
Assignments are piling up sky high, and we're entering week 4 now. 6 more weeks to go.



I'm still thinking about you.
and if'd only you knew.
I thought about your life. And the stark difference it is from mine.
Always wondering what you've been up to, and most of all, if you were still writing again.
I guess this feeling never goes away. And there isn't much I would do about it.
Just think of the moments, of how every single detail would bring me back again.
So much hurt, yet an equal amount of happiness.

I will never forget you, but I do hope you forget me.
For I will remain nothing but a ghost to you.
A ghost in your heart. 

world food day

it's been so long since I've blogged.
So sorry to have abandoned you readers out there.
(if there were any to begin with)




                                            

Main thing I wanted to post about today was the World Hunger Day.
Joined my friends and lecturer at college at 7.30am. on a Sunday morning to help pack meals for the hungry people.
The whole event itself was amazing and the experience was one of a kind.
Note that we were there voluntarily. And we spent one whole day there packing food.

It was crazy fun and we laughed and danced so hard at the end.
They even served free flow of beer to all participants.
So proud of myself.   :)


Watched the three musketeers in 3D yesterday. Mum's treat.
Entire movie was awesome !
Even more in 3D. Don't mind watching it again.
                                               

Milla Jovovich was the countess slash assasinator slash spy

                                   
                               

Absolute love. 

The best part was that Mr.Darcy from Pride and Prejudice was one of them !

Till then, hope to recieve proper pictures tomorrow about world food day.  

seriously, we took alot of inappropriate ones. 

  

odd jobs and more shopping !

Have been drowned in part time jobs lately and spending my money on seriously unnecessary things.
I honestly don't know why, but I have the strongest urge to spend spend spend.    :)

  

I have been shopping so much lately, I can actually make a super haul video already.
There's the file organiser from Miss Whatever.
Then the slip in files from popular.
Cardigan from Nichii.
Shirts from Cotton On.
New pencil box and phone casing from the night market.
Hair accessories from the market too.
New thermal mug.  (dad wouldn't let me use the plastic one. all the more reason to spend money)
New handbag which I regretted getting.
New stationery.
Another new handbag (on the way to recieving it)
New accessory from Diva.
Hair dye. (have chio hair now !)

Just to list down a few. hahah.

Seriously. Have been spending too much money.
At least I was working for the past few days to earn back some money.
Was a terrible shopaholic.
I guess my wish list is somewhat completed. Haha. It'd better be right?

So excited to get back to college tomorrow.
And the new classes I'm about to sign up for.