who am I to listen to your whammies

Became aboyeur today.

Was quite scared at first because I didn't know what to do.

Got a little razy in the begginning because everyone was coming to you for appetizer and main course. But after that, things started to settle down. So it wasn't so bad.

Didn't get to do plating today cause I was busy checking on the pax.

but I had fun. :)

Made shrimp cocktail and roasted chicken with black pepper gravy and served cheese cake.

Made peach almond tart on monday. Was lucky to be able to eat a slice.

It was loveee !!

Event job tomorrow after lectures. Nervous like sheeet.

And then hotel visiting on friday. Wheee !!

Life could not get any busier.

Owh, and there's lectures on Saturday.

Math exams.....

Won’t tell anybody that your voice is my favourite sound

Another bunch of random pictures again.

I have finally decided to stop. To stop scrutinizing every thing that I do. To stop evaluating myself each time I failed to help someone. To stop blaming myself when things go wrong. And to stop trying to save the world. Because I know I can’t.

It could be so hard sometimes, to watch the destruction of a bond you thought that was strong. To just stand there and gawp at the crumbling of the structure we’ve built together after so long.

I thought I could try my best to salvage everything. I thought I could save the remnants left from the destruction, and then piece together everything again.

not sure with whats going on. but I hope things will turn out right.

If you could give me time, love, I would possess your heart

Went to Oriental Pavilion to have dim sum with Uncle Kok Chong and Aunty Peng. Ate to almost about Rm190 bucks just on small titbits alone. Yes, I am shocked. But I had the most wonderful Tang Yuen in ginger soup with black sesame inside. Mmmmm.

Dad dropped me and sister off at Tropicana Mall to grab some stuff and went home late in the afternoon.

Anyway, daddy bought a Kenari for me to drive. The car will probably arrive on Tuesday or Wednesday. Then I can start driving. But mum does not allow me to drive to college till next year. I hate having transport problems.

Bought ribbons for college. I love ribbons ! They’re so magical !

 

 

 

I am tired of crying so often lately. I am tired of getting pissed off at my younger sister for not doing things she was suppose to. I a tired of getting angry at my mum for screwing me over the tiniest detail of things. And the worst part is, I can’t get angry. I cry my eyes out to numb the pain. And I cry to hide relieve myself of all these conflicting emotions roaring within me. I am confused, lost and so alone.

There is no one to talk to, no one to hear me out, no one to understand what have I become. Its becoming a habit for me, to evaluate myself every moment of the day. To think through whether I have changed, whether I have gone back to the same old me. Whether I was being punished for all those things that I have done. I wanna stop hurting myself so badly, I wanna stop doubting all my friends who were with me every single hour of the day. I wanna cease all these conflicting emotions within me, and I wanna hide my heart away.

I don’t belong to anyone, and nobody belongs to me

Had a thought just now.

I have a friend who told me that if anyone got me, then they’ve won themselves a prize. I didn’t ask if that meant anything good, or if it was a compliment in the first place.

From the way I look at it, if I were only the prize, I would be the big teddy hanging by the stall, that prize that everyone wants to have.

But I don’t want to be the bear. Instead, I want to be the one whose guy won the bear for. I want to be the one who stands by the side, watching him winning the bear for me.

And not the prize, that stood by the side, hanging alone.

I don’t wanna let go

Present from Juat Lee.  I likre pretty pastel colours. 

Got crazy over this quote we bought from Sunway for Karen’s new car.

Best      Friends   Forever     Always.

Melysa  Karen     Me           Micheele

I know this picture looks very wrong.

Its our ring finger for heaven’s sake.

Pretty butterfly I drew on Karen. 

I wanna give all my loving to you

Lots of love from the friends and family last weekend.

Heck, I even got a surprise from TGI on tuesday.

Thank you all for the lovely wishes on facebook. You haven’t forgotten me. And thank you melysa, karen, micheele, chee seng, and jen nee for the beautiful purple dress. yes, its my ultimate favourite colour.

Thank you daddy, for the new phone and awesome dinner at swenson’s. Because you love me soooo !!! And I love you too. And Thank you mummy for the dinner at New York Deli. I am soooo happy.

Ohhh, and Thank you sister, for the adidas bottle and purple blouse.

Its been a whirlwind weekend for me. And a crazy week too. Watch Sorcerer's apprentice with the college peeps. Was an awesome movie. I think we were the noisiest bunch there. Haha. We took the entire one row and was laughing during the movie.

So anyway, there’s boring accounts tomorrow. And AISEC night on Friday and IKEA browsing on Sunday. Life could not make me a more happier person.