These mundane acts

I have not gone over to the lala side.
I will not repeat that.
I'm not lala.
Fine, I've repeated that. But thats to make sure I'm not lala.
Or am I?
:)

Popiah and P.Tang is really getting on my nerves.
Who would have thought that I would scream at a teacher.
I was better educated.
But screw education when it does not cover teacher screaming at your face because she was deaf.
Breathing calmly.
Anyway, english forum was so screwed today.
P.Tang was so picky and naggy. And I guess that sums up to a PMS-ing teacher.
Even Zubaidah was better.
I'm so screwed.

SPM results coming out tomorrow yo.
Wenyi, its your last chance.
Admitting is the first step to recovery. :)

Breathless

May I present So Yi Jung Sunbae.
My hot hot HOT dreamy boyfriend.
Or the other thousand girls assume him to be. :)
Yes, go gaga all over him when he smiles.
He leaves me breathless.
I'm still NOT lala. LOL

SarangHae YiJung Sunbae
I still am ever addicted to BOF.
JiHoo is not bad too okay, despite his immobile brown hair.
Hahaa.



"You are the most important thing to me ever"

Take a turn

I don't know if I'll ever move on from here.
Ironic isn't it?
Maybe you'll probably don't understand what I'm referring to but that does not matter for now.
I'll still try my very best.
Time after all is running out.
And things just gets a little more complicated each time.
Like tangled threads fabricating itself.
I will try.
No matter what.



I am totally into pottery now. :)
Sarang Hae YiJung Sun Bae. lols





"Bella, I couldn't live with myself if I ever hurt you. You don't know how it's tortured me."
"The thought of you, still, white, cold... to never see you blush scarlet again, to never see that flash of intuition in your eyes when you see through my pretenses... it would be unendurable."
"You are the most important thing to me now. The most important thing to me ever."

Fraying the edges of this hole

So much to do, so much to do.
Got english forum and malay forum at the same time.
Puan Tang is really starting to PMS, so yea, I guess she's just trying to follow Zubaidah.
Anyway, I am in love with BOF.
The show is completely awesome I tell you.
Maybe not for you realistic people out there. But this show makes you cringe and awe at the same time.
Yes!! This show is totally awesome.
Okay, although the main characters can be a little too lala.
Who gives a damn about it anyway.
Haha.
Boys Over Flower is awesome!!!!!
the guy from the second left side is hot hot hot!!!.
hahaa :)




Owh, before I forget. This is specially dedicated to you.
To remind you that I am a person and that my perspective matters too.
Just because you are capable of everything doesn't mean you can just shrug me off.
I'm not a disposable item.
I am a person.
And eventhough you think that everything you did was right, think about someone else.
Think from their perspective whether you were wronged or right.
Don't listen to news others.
Talk straight to me.
Who would know what kind of words they twist until everything was wrong.
Stop thinking that you could get mad at me because I did what you ask me too.
Must every word that comes out of your mouth be used.
I'm not a computer, and I don't exactly record every exact word you say.
Because sometimes, I'd prefer to share my opinion too.
I'm not sorry because I did noting wrong.
And i do have the right to stay angry after all.
I'm so sick of being pushed by you just because I understand how it feels being hurt.
But that doesn't mean that you can just take advantages.
I don't want to hurt you
Because I know how much you've been through.
But this has gone far enough.
And as a perso I have my limits too.




"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb"
"What a stupid lamb"
"What a sick, masochistic lion"

The lesser sorrow I had to face

Enclosed I am in this seemingly narrow space.
No way to move
No way out
Just this dark dark place closing upon me
I'd probably still try to delude myself if it weren't for the reasons that I still had a life to live.
And that I'm not some fictional character where time did not seem to matter.
Its funny how some stories could leave you with this feeling of anxiety yet another yearning at the same time.
Could you still hate this existence?
Maybe for some others, everything seemed easy.
They'd just fall into their little routines everyday, knowing that they still had some sort of purpose here.
But where do I fall into this little routines that made up the lives of so many people that breathed here.
Here I'm trying to escape into my own world where everything would go as they should be.
I'd shun the thought of this numbness that was soon taking over me.
The part where there was nothing else I could do to ease this burning inside.
These little mundane things that I do, trying in vain to distract myself from these thoughts that now haunt me.
Sometimes its just so hard to keep it away, so I could still live whats left of this life.
Things had now became so complicated.
How could the heart be mangled so often, and yet still beat like any other would?
I don't know.
Maybe because it was that fact that reality would still be there no matter how hard you try to escape it.
Wouldn't it be best if I could just stay as a part of a page, embedded in the story forever.
I guess not.
I'm trying to lift this weight that had become my burden.
Or I could only look forward to each night, painfully stepping through each hour of the day, and finally close my eyes to dream.
Though the darkness did not hold much surprise for me because by day, my life had already seemed bleak and the darkness at night made no difference.




"So what you're saying is I'm your brand of heroin?"
"Yes, you're exactly my brand of heroin"

Under this neverending rain

Gwyneth has very sad thoughts.
Fiction or not, her words are just so, hmm, how do you put it?
Painful?
Anyway, school has resumed as usual and the holidays are coming down on us.
Yay!!
Yes cheer with me.
Pengetua was seen walking around the school, necktie in hand.
Scary?
Not exactly, but it was definately an awkward moment when we saw him.
I'm now reading New Moon. AGAIN.
Yes again. I'm hooked, so unhook me.
I only read the few parts at the beginning, careful to skip the parts where the pain starts.
And the end.
Going to buy eclipse.
Yes I've read the book, but it doesn't hurt to read AGAIN right?


Cheer is still as tiring as ever.
I've finished my poms. :)
We're gonna have skirts again.
Woot Woot!



"I'm sorry"
"Of all things to apologize for"
"What should I apologize for"
"For nearly taking yourself away from me forever"

Another end to this day

Another day, I'm gonna lose it soon.
Trying to get my art work done as soon as possible.
But either than that, all I can do is just sit here and blog my way through.
You don't exactly have to read all this right?
Not that you people often read what I write. :)
Enlighten me.

I am reading twilight for the sixth time.
hahaa.





"Do you truly believe that you care for me more than I do for you?"
"Are you going to answer that question?"
"Yes"
"Yes, you are going to answer, or yes, you really think that?"
"Yes I really think that"
"You're wrong"