Had we finally parted in ways we never would have thought?
Had we all finally moved on from then?
Had you all planned to go on without me from day one?
If so, who were you before?

Had you all not realise the absence hurts?
Had you all not realise I was there looking all the time?
Had you all not realise I was still here longing for our old gossips and hearty talks?
Why is it so painful then?

Was I still there after all?
Or you have finally found ways to push aside the ignorance.
Was I suppose to do something,
or rather just sit there and wait.
But you will never come.
Am I on my own again?

Audrey and Yvonne

Surprise surprise, its a wonder I'm not

Shall list my daily updates again. =]
1. Still praying hard I will be back in time for Yinky's splashin sixteen.
2. Still praying hard I might be able to go to the beach in Penang.
3. Hoping for a coincidental bump with music peeps in penang, which is highly unlikely.
4. Still thinks that people driving me around is better than driving.
5. Thinks Taboo is a very jumpy kind of game. The part where it makes you stumble over these few words. "you know, you know, you know" I know you're laughing Khei Qi and Wen Qi.
6. Am ever in debt to KY whom I have been boring lately due to my busy schedules and lame talks.
7. Surprised, or did not surprise Low Mei with a cake.
8. Never ever stand out in the wind holding a cake with FIFTEEN SMALL candles. Wen Qi and Tze Wei, they have big candles for a reason. Humour me.
9. Never stand in the middle of a condo looking up at a balcony holding a cake. People might stare.
10. Low Mei's cake became undigestable because of that pink layer of candle wax.
11. Low Mei Yen does not find people stripping in the middle of a condo area interesting.
12. I am still in love with my blog layout. =)
13. I am still in love with my miniature clay thingis. Picture above.
14. I have to help Hong Ling spread to the world that she is taking off her braces in two weeks.
15. I am STILL in love with Gong, right?? hahaa
16. Camera phone flash can be stupid at times.

there.. sixteen updates in coordination with my sixteenth year.
ohh.BTW, Happy Birthday Low Mei yen.. teehee

I still wonder about those impetuos decisions i have made in my past that led to indiscernible results.
Does the difference matter so much now??
Despite all my best efforts in putting the damn past behind me, it comes even more often.
Taking away a piece of me each time.
When will it go away.
Even though you do not realise how much this hurts me.
Please set me free.

After a storm, will it still a blue day?

Hello.
Recent updates bout today.
- Went to OU to watch BOLT with peeps today.
- Had snacks at Chilis. We (five people) shared a bowl of bottomless Tostadas chips, and we never refilled.
- I still miss hanging out with them. =(
- I bought a pastel purple nail polish. At least that cheers me up.
- I still think a pink shop is irrational.
- I think that BB foundation in Skin shop is ridiculously expensive.
Read after me... RIDICULOUSLY expensive.
- Shah Alam Ah Yee's Christmas party is pulled forward to the 20th.
- Sasa's workers scare the hell out of me. Not like there's any hell in me either.
- I want to watch House Bunny.
- I fell in love with Hong Ling's poodle. =]
- Michael Jackson's moves are WAYYY cooler than shuffling.
- I still want to eat Korean BBQ
- I still sorrow over those matters that did not seem to mean anything anymore.
That word still lingers around me, and I'm unable to rest.
Had it meant so much to me, these insignificant words from you?
Had time move so fast, and so far?
Was I unable to catch up with the past that still haunts me?
I still stand there alone, letting my thoughts flow with the soft breeze that floats by.
It still hurts deep inside.
I want it to stop... so badly. But I don't know how.

Today as it is

I cut my hair today.
Nothing else to blog about.
Dad is leaving for Greece tonight.
Still miss the times I spent at Miss Beh's place.
Meeting up with peeps tomorrow.
=)

Before

After

- End -

the end

Sleepover sessions At Miss Beh's again with Khei Qi , Khei Sze, Hong Ling, Denise and Nicole. Had to settle on the make-up for the concert.
Watched The Cinderella story.....again. And Khei Sze was reciting every line. hahaa.
Left for UM early in the morning to do the backdrop.
Driving there had its own insanity.
Btw, Wen Qi had taken a lizard's life. She had separated its head unwillingly. Poor thing.
That lizard will probably haunt her in her sleep.
And me too. Why?
Cause I had to clean it up.. EWE
You could actually see blood.
What would Miss Beh say?? Hmmm?

And then, Hillary slept over my house and we were burning our hair with dildos. Hahaa.
Kidding.
Its a damn curler okay.

The concert is finally over and I'd really hoped that I did well. Okay..fine. Satisfying.
Was busy walking up and down and left and right.
My legs were painful and sore from the walking in the stilettos.
Never ever EVER wear stilettos on a job, they're lethal.
People aged 12 and below can be so damn cute. Especially Jie Eu.
Overall, I should think the concert was OKAY. I'm glad it turned out well.
And the backdrop stayed on.
Thanks again Katrina for the dress. Love you lots!!!!
And thank you KY for comin even though I know this is sooooo totally not your thing.
Will make it up to you. =]
And Thank you miss beh for giving me this oppurtunity to have made so many friends and to outcast my talent in dancing again.

Still feels a little empty bout not goin to Miss Beh's condo.
Every morning, the very moment I open my eyes, I'll think about the things we're gonna do at Miss Beh's place today.
I guess the need isn't there anymore.
Anyhoo, we all will still get together somehow right??

My friend is interested in Nicole and Sin Jiang.. hahaa..huh?? ewe..
Camwhoring is still totally back in season. :D

Time flew past the reddened sky

a
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What happened to dance practice??
Choreographer also playing??

Awkward pose??

You go super meme

Yet another day folks... =]


Are there still words left to pursue?
Because they remain hidden beneath those deep dark eyes

Musical companion

Thats it for today folks! =]


again and again I would dream
leading me deep away from where I'd be
scouring this darkness,
my soul was scorch by this aching absence



Time wasn't the only thing that changed the eventx that seemingly occured