This is the last, I promise.

Its already been two years and two months since that day. Life for me has changed drastically over these period. A changing course so quickly morphed. How could I ever forget you, and how could I ever put you out of my mind.

You went as swiftly as you entered my life. But the severity of the lost I felt after you left was deep enough to let it linger on for so long. Your presence was like a dark ink blot on a white shirt. The stains may never wash away. It only fades after a while.

And its that long while that hurts so bad.

I could never comprehend why you. Of all the things other people see in you, I saw something different. You were like my own shooting star that runs across the glimmering night sky. It is the words that I miss so much. And that level of understanding, so different from others. But it sufficed for me.

To forget would take so much time. For that scar you left feels like it would just never heal. You took away a part of me. And after that, I've never felt whole again. It hurts to this degree that my heart would just slip away quietly, leaving me soul-less. A part of me is bound to you, and it's not something that could be withdrawn so easily.

Pain, pain, and pain. The thought of what-ifs just kills me. Had I not mattered to you at all. Was I just a ghost in this short part of your life. Because it felt like a whole chapter to me.

This will finally be the end. the moments of you still lingering in my thoughts will fade.

And it will be like it never happened before.

I cannot afford to feel pain like this no more.

I'm always wishing for a wish

another boring day at college. :)

Didn't do much on Sunday.

It's daddy's birthday today. He is turning 53.

But he says he's 47. When he hits 50, he starts aging backwards.

Happy birthday anyway daddy. :)

Wish you may and wish you might, Keep your wish and hold on tight

Had sleepover sessions with Karen and Micheele.

Laughed like mad crazy people. Made Karen watch Hannah Montana with me. Hahaa

The guy in the movie is smoking HAWT. :)

And Karen got me addicted to Butterfly fly away. Its a meaningful song.

Wish I had the voice to sing to my mummy.

Anywayy, slept late because we did crazy random things at night. And we bitched and bitched.

After all, it was the highlight of the sleepover right?

Haha.

Went to KL early next morning. Wore the wrong damn shoes.

Every part of my feet are peeling and it hurts like crazyy.

I never ever ever want to walk in KL without my flip flops and shorts.

Interviewed Micheele's uncle who is a chef working at the Prince Hotel.

I just love the atmosphere of the hotel. :) Its pretty.

Anyway, we had the whole restaurant to ourselves because they had to close for break.

Did a video tour round the whole restaurant, which was actually very small and exclusive.

Their kitchen looked almost the same as ours. Just a little more messier and more charts.

Sooo, Friday night was spent buying oath rings and drooling at Chuck Bass and Nate Archibald.

And Saturday was spent making a guy's life miserable. haha.

With that, all the walking was literally killing my feet.

I was in total agony when I had to walk under the sun all the way back to the LRT station.

I am now officially the person who consumes the most plasters. :)

And sooooo, I'm crammed with assignments and exams and short on moneyyy. :(

Assignment due on monday. EEEKK!

Had dinner with cousie Lydia and family. I ate a whole bowl of rice. O.O

Its alot for me. have been eating so much lately and I'm always tired.

Sighs. Eyebags are coming back....

The best people you'll ever meet. :)

darling, yes, you are my only exception. :)

The secret that lies beneath your lips

I'm back world!

Have you missed my random rantings?

I know you have.

It's been crazy busy lately. With all the endless assignments and drama going on and on.

"its killing my brain cells!" quote Karen. :)

Anyways, I've gotten over crazy computer assignment and Room Division assessment.

The printing guy really hates me now. I'll bet no one has ever given anything more difficult to print. He practically cringes when I come over

Today we learnt how to operate a coffee machine and ate cake. Was Miss Zuratul's birthday today. :) Me and Micheele were practically fighting over who was going to finish the coffee. At least I had fun playing bartender role.

I just realized that it has only been over one month and so much has changed since then. The morphing of characters, growing and changing so quickly. We learnt so much about one another. About what lies beyond us and what blinds us. And the term is drawing to an end. Its an understatement to say that time flies. Because it goes by us in a blinding speed and when we open our eyes, we're at the end.

If things could change so much in just a months time, how much more are we going to uncover by the end of two years?

Doesn't matter where the world hides you, the world can never hide whats true

More crumbs :)

Maid left. And I'm gonna miss her. :(

Am stuck doing all the chores now. So much for being independent.

Yes, I am spoilt.

My relatives have been calling and telling to do house chores.

I know, I know, I know.

Can't wait to get back to college.

I crave their company too much that its the only distraction for me.

I hate being alone. Having to think back again and again.

To look at all my mistakes.

Eyebags are coming back to haunt me.

Am going to catch some sleep. If only sleep will allow me to catch them.

Oh man, My maid left. :(