I see now what holds me back, but it will not be my mountain for long

Some leftover pictures from the week’s events. (:

Did sensory analysis in our last F&B class with Mr Patrick.

last service class of the year. We decided to get all christmassy and sang songs to the guest.

The poster I’ve designed for our S.E.E event

Didn’t take many pictures. Looked very horrible in a suit with all my hair pulled back. ARGH !

And our trip to Klang for Bah Kut Teh, followed by shopping at Sunway, and then bowling, and then badminton sessions, and then dinner at Ayam Penyet and then dessert at Snowflake. (:

Cheers to one year in diploma of hospitality management.

I LOVE YOU GUYS !!!!

So I wake up to reality and kissed it hello

look at the stars

look how they shine for you

all the things that you do

Had assessments and practical tests for the past week.

And yesterday was our last service class for the first year.

Mr Kenny gave us christmas hats to wear for the very last minute.

And we even had the weirdest song to sing to our guests.

Had lots of fun serving and it wasn't so bad for me anymore, because I was serving with friends.

Went murni for dinner at SS2 with the guys yesterday night.

Damn that place is packed.

Anyway, just finished the PA event today and I think it went well.

Although there were some cliche going on between talk partners and all.

but besides all that, the event went quite well. :)

I'm pooped and have to go to college early tomorrow cause we're going to klang for bah kut teh.

WHOPPEEE.

Now I see you standing right here

wow. I can't even open my eyes now.

And for the first time, ever, I almost fell asleep while driving. Dangerous sial !

So many things happened over the week and I barely had the time to blog about it.

But guess what, I will.

After I take a 5 minute nap. :)

this was the very first page, not where the story ends

Taylor Swift looks so gorgeous with straight hair.  (:

Had yumcha sessions with friends just now. Talked and had loads of fun. Am missing the times that I’ve had with them for the past few months.  *sighs*

Time will not wait for me although I wish it would. I wish time would stop altogether so I could bask in the very moment before it slips through my fingers.

Finally had taro balls at Snowflake. Have been dying to try it out. I love the chewy part of it. DELICIOUS !!!!

I will move on I will move on I will move on I will move on

I will trust myself I will trust myself I will trust myself

I believe I believe I believe I believe I believe I believe I believe

I will not cry I will not cry I will not cry

and I will NOT break infront of you.

kiss me at the gate

Exams exams and more exams.

The year is about to end and I can’t believe time could possible fly so fast. So had kitchen class these two days. Am super tired after all these cooking and then there’s room division assessment tomorrow.

I think I really did badly for all my assessments lately. I can’t concentrate and I just couldn’t focus on my studies. Have to do something about it soon !

Juat and I having lunch at Delicious.     We just absolutely love that place. Had good talk with her, and walked about. I’m gonna miss her so.

YES ! I bought blackcurrant flavoured sticky.  LOVE

Coloured clay charms I made for me friends. The materials cost a bomb ! Adorable sial.

Cousin’s dog Nikki. My sister says she wants to cut his balls off because it was sticking out obscenely on the marble floor.  OMG

Spent the whole Sunday lazing about in Shah Alam waiting for my parents to browse through the houses there. Was a full moon that night. After dinner, we went to tutti frutti to eat frozen yoghurt and mum was mumbling about how the yoghurt cost a bomb.

Sister’s

me and my cousin’s

Kitties roaming about my future home. Apparently the house area has only expensive stray cats. None of those black and yellowed eye cats. Just fat tabbies, Siamese, and white with grey striped cats. See how influential my new home area is.       (:

 

BTW, was Ivan’s birthday today. Classmates smashed his face with cake after service class. Was fun to watch.

HAPPY BITRTHDAY LIM HAN YANG !!

Why'd they do this?
Why'd they ever have that thought at all?

Was all those months so worthless after all? And I stand here, trying to fight so hard.
To find my balance alone, and to work so hard just to earn your trust.

It's always been this way, and I guess that it'll never change.
Maybe I was meant to stand alone.
And I will live and die alone.

I rely on no one and no one relies on me.
I am on what I stand, I am my own two feet.
And I don't fucking need anyone of you.

It hurts, but there's no one to tell.
It burns, but there's no one to soothe the pain.
It scars, and there's no one to heal the wound.

I don't know if fighting all this makes me stronger, every painful step I take just pushes me lower and lower.
I'm angry and I'm tired of being angry.
you all can just leave me alone.
fuck all of you. I'm done.

done.

I’d wish I’d never ever ever have to come home.

I’d wish I’d never ever ever have to face all this unnecessary depression.

Its like everyone’s mood just plummeted. And I just have this feeling of nonchalance, as if this occurred too many times for me to even bother.

Whatever.

I had enough. If you want me to cook my own dinner the next time, maybe I will decide not to eat at home after all.

Its sickening and boring, for the same old things to happen again. Like boring soap operas, every scene so dramatically done to capture the viewers attention.

Well, this isn’t a soap opera. So why do this to your own family.

Why do this to me?