why are you still searching, as if I'm not enough

Had a very long day today.

I'm so exhauster to the point that I do not want to blog today. :)

But nevertheless to NOT FAIL my non-existing readers,

I will still blog despite my failing arms.

Had more lectures at college today about college life. blah blah blah.

Seems real exciting but I know the excitement will eventually fade.

Timetable and grouping will be done tomorrow.

Hope I can get into first or second class. :)

Anyway, my phone DIED on me today.

And taylor's just so happen to not have PAYPHONES and CLOCKS.

( not everyone can afford a phone and a watch okay! )

Was lost for two hours and a half.

Panicked the whole time because I was afraid they couldn't find me.

I actually thought they went home without me.

Hunted around the whole college and was desperate enough to borrow the office phone.

Luckily, I remembered Wenyi's number.

Today was a seriously long day.

Ran out of places to hide and eventually found a corner at the student admission office.

Was disturbed by a bunch of lala students earlier and ran out.

I know now how being homeless felt like.

Will promise to help the homeless more in the future. :D

Until then, pictures will be up tomorrow.

Phone has officially died.

Stay tuned readers. :)

owh, and I absolutely love tenth avenue north. *big smiless*

if the truth means nothing to you, what am I suppose to do

Hello. :)

After I came back from college today, I literally dropped dead in my bed.

Well, after I had my McDs. haha

Anyway, today was an insanely looooong day.

There were a few awkward moments at first.

I'm not really good at making friends.

But at least I know some people now, but their all from culinary arts.

Don't know anyone from hospitality, yet.

Sat for the english placement test.

The listening part was hard.

When you are filling in the answers, they start speaking the answers to another question.

Haha.

Was lost all too many times.

And the campus was HUGE. And I meant that literally.

Had trouble finding my way around the place.

The library itself has four floors. Haha.

Yes, I am totally overwhelmed by the size of the campus.

We got to taking out ID pictures and measuring our uniforms.

I like them mandarin shirts. :)

The shoes are just too horrible to describe.

We have vests, kitchen jackets, mandarin shirts, restaurant pants, and kitchen pants.

That is a whole lot of uniform.

Another day tomorrow people.

I'll be super exhausted by the end of the week.

Take what you need while there's time, the city will be earth in a short while

am off to college tomorrow people. wish me luck ! :)

Touch these tires eyes of mine

Went to a chinese hospital today.

the whole place was smelling like a chinese medical hall.

and I don't really like the smell of dried herbs and sad people.

anyway, doctor ran a quick check on me.

he even noticed my eyebags!

(Must slap on makeup next time.)

check check check

no fried food, no humidity, no hot and cold water, no.....

I think I were better off without this condition.

It makes my life so complicated.

ended up home with LOTS of chinese herbal medicine.

and I saw dried up dead bugs inside the medicine packets.

I'm suppose to drink two bowls everyday

I'm gonna puke.

for all those mistakes that i've made

for all those chances i did not take

Don't let me fall asleep, feeling empty again

I'd still wouldn't get over it.

It can be so sickening at times.

But letting go was as impossible as encasing a cloud.

I know I'd never quite understand,

why I write this over and over again.

Why I'd allow the pain to wash over me so many times.

Maybe it's because I just want to remember,

that everything before this was real.

I don't think you'll ever quite understand about how I feel.

But you should,

cause then you won't take me for granted.

I was screaming your name in the middle of a big town, but you wouldn't hear me

when people blog about you,

it just gives you that really nice and warm feeling.

:)

Never regret anything, because at one time, it was what we wanted

Life could be but a brief moment, or a small wave of a whisper.

It is only a minute, or an hour, or a day unpassing to the next moment.

It is but a timeline that waits, till our breaths run short and our body expires.

I've been thinking about the words that she said, about what we try to do to let it go. How we cope with the unending misery that separates us entirely from what we used to be. The way we let ourselves wonder from the straight path, and become lost in another world entirely.

Time could be so brief.

And pain could make that brief moment seem so long.

It still hurts so bad.

I'm afraid that I could never let go.

You were still on my mind every second of the day.

Please, please, leave.