Blue, silver and Gold

Tonight is the closing ceremony for the Beijing Olympics, and there goes another four years, School is reopening soon, which actually is tomorrow. Results are coming back and finals are coming forward. Haven't got time to get start on the story yet. =]
Mum and I stayed up the whole saturday night just to watch the rhythmnic gymnast competition. I was really amazed at their flexibility and their beautiful costumes. This competition was said to be the most beautiful sport and I can't help agreeing. The way they dance with their chosen apparatus as one. Its like the dancers and their apparatus were fused together. Its simply wonderful to watch them move. Ohh, don't forget to watch the Olympic Beijing welcomes you video. Its awesome and I somehow just love the tune of it.

in between these clouds

hides glittering wings and sounds

with swift movement unfound

her eyes scanned the ground

she floats above in the air
without strings that holds her there
with grace she flies on without care
that the soft blue clouds will tear

embrace such glorious profound beauty
embark on a journey, on these wings of glory
unravel these threads that makes up a story
upon her body that soars endlessly

Icefyre,
My saviour.
Take me away,
Far from these cursed grounds that lay.
Take me to a place,
Where there's night and day.
And the beauty of the night,
Never cease to come and stay.

Runned over

Was tired these few days and I feel like as though I've been drained of energy. Just flowing out endlessly through me. Skipped art class today cuz cousin came over from Bukit Jelutong, but managed to move it to the next day. School is reopening soon!!! Went 1u again with family to look for stuff. I love the new shoes in sketchers, RM269. If anyone has excess cash, do contact me immediately. Being really random lately because I am still not getting over my disappointment. Really, all of them could not come and that really really sucked!!!!! Ohh well, can't do much bout it can I. . =]

I can't do anymore even if I tried. And sometimes I wonder was I ever a part of anything that mattered??? Did they ever thought about how I felt and was that the best that they could offer to comfort me??? Yes, I'm angry for something so unreasonable, but think about it. They know me and for who I am, is it so wrong to just wish for something more??? for at least something small than just empty promises?? . It's not wrong to want something more. Was it too much to ask? Yes, sure I said something to prevent from further expenditure, but could I still have something elseI'll end. I'm sorry. I'm sarting to wonder is all this a trick?? and somehoe place words that won't harm me too much?? But either way, its still hurting me like shit. So If you realise this..stop pretending. Let this linger within you so you could question yourself if you had did the right thing and not cause any further damage to what has already been destroyed. Think... if you had did all you could to help and prevent further feelings being demolished.

that disappointment

Slept over at Wen's house. Had conflict in the morning, then went off to The Curve for food. Had lunch in Ikea then walked around Curve. Was suppose to have a sort of gathering that night but not many people could turn up so it was canceled. Was so disappointed. Really really disapponted. But anyways, we watched Wall.E, and this idiot stepped on my foot. OUCH!!!! We were like walking around aimlessly cuz there was nothing to do.... Ohh... we sort of were talking about english names, and then if you put all three of our initials together it spelt GAY.. hahaa. We ended the day at TGI.Fridays with only 4 people, including Amanda Yong. She came after all those who ffk us. Yes, fong fei kei. EEsh. Ate and left. And thats already the highlight of my holidays

I dreamt of you again

But this time, it was more real then a dream

Crushed

Crushed, not by love or hatred. But by the anger that wells up in me. the broken heart inside this family. How long will I still be able to cope living like this eventhough I keep thinking that I'm one of those luckiest girls alive. No, I'm not. Everything is ruined, my birthday and the joyful mood I was in. I'm so angry at everything and I can't see things clearly. Anger blurs my vision and obscure my sight and I'm not able to tell whats right. Everything is just not right. Why can't I just live for once without deals and terms and conditions. Sure, there will be limits to what I do but with so many deals to keep??? I don't know if I can cope. But I think I still can hold on. It won't last long but at least I'm holding on.....

The cherished gift

Eunice's birthday. lets see where to start. Had girly sessions which consists of lots of shopping for outfits and chatting and eating and walking. Ohh..and make up-ing. =] ... Was in yishion laughing like idiots and the workers there were like staring at us. We were swaying as though we were drunk but we sure were having tons of fun. Ohhh... in the end we bought like lots of clothes from yishion excluding me and wen cuz we bought short pants at the market that morning. Ai Ni had a scar we didn't know about that look like a dragon with a butterfly wing on one side. I'm serious.lols. I swear she has the whitest palest pair of legs I have ever seen. Then, we went to padini and bought a top for meng pei and me. =] After that, we rushed to the toilet and did make up, well not really make up excluding the eye shadow and mascara and bla bla bla...just foundation. Bought Eunice's present and then went to the Opal Condo thingi.

Ai Ni's mum took us there and we were laughing our butts off because we kept going round and round.

Gave Eunice her presents and saw Lai Yee and Zi Chuen. Slowly the crowd starts to pour in and we watched a slide show of her journey through life thingi and ate.. ohh..btw, lee chong wei lost...sob sob. no more gold medal. Mum said he played badly and didnt put up a fight. It seems he was content with a silver.

Anyways, Eunice knew something was up and shortly after her blowing out the candles... we dragged her into the pool. then all of us got pushed in. Well.. fine not all, but some. Still haven't get Lai Yee for pushing me in. Ohhh.. I accidentely wet Wen's phone. It seems the whole thing went in the water.. lol. So that about sums up Eunice's birthday. =]

Happy Birthday sweetheart!!!!

will post up the picture when I get them

Bla la la

Eunice's birthday bash is coming... =]
My birthday "bash" is coming.... note the inverted commas

Lee Chong Wei made it into the finals...Finally, something to be proud of in the olympics. I'll bet he's dreaming of the RM1 mil now..

People, please update your blog...ran out of things to read...=]

went over to Hao Min's house for some short guitar lessons. And then went over to my house instead cuz she wanted some songs of mine. walked...talked...laughed. Was trying to tune the guitar cuz dad tuned it all wrong. Hao Min sat there trying to test the newly tuned strings. Can you imagine the big guitar on her. Yes, I laughed..hahaha. I mean, I don't usually see her with the big acoustic guitar. Wait, can you imagine hao min plays the guitar.. Wayyy cool. I'm still learning too. Tried to read some tabs or chords or whatever you like to name it, was being stubborn... could not read tabs at all, and still insisted on playing super hard songs. Well, thats my day today. Had some tgirly sessions with Wen again. We have "girly" sessions every tuesday and friday.. hahaa. Talked bout stuff. =]

In hysterics within these walls

and here i am pen down again
with broken tears and bleeding hand
never knowing what else to do
time is sought, there's none to pursue

these yellow parchment with black ink
and on them were words that sing
their soft voices patter in the wind
a banished curse, now a sin

one is lost and one is found
can you hear that silent sound
creepily pacing the earth like a hound
time stops so here i'm bound

Exams are finally over and you should see the way students sit for exam. wow. Yea thats it, wowMaybe if you get me then you'll understand. . haha. we really should call this exam "try-to-refer-for-answers-but-don't-let-teacher-see monthly assesment test" haha. Maybe that name suits it more. Nothing much interesting occured lately besides Eunice's birthday bash this sunday and my Post Birthday Party Sleepover. =] Can't wait. So, thats about it.

I will try to not posting anymore emo post but not posting them is outrageous, I mean we should express ourselves freely right?? But maybe sometimes, I realised that I only right when I'm forlorn, and in a distress mood. But thats how I am. I'm done. And no matter how many times I say this...... I never fullfill it. But now I try.

Happy Birthday to Yeow Lai Yee and Liu Ming Yao and the soon to be birthday girl, Eunice!!!

Its pretty much to deal with lately eventhough you think I'm just the everyday happy laughing girl. Deep down in whats buried inside are all the hurt and pain you can never feel. But here I try to hide everything, everything that could even lead to questionin. I'm so tired trying to hide everything everyday eventhough it may seem like an easy job to do. I swear I'd do anything to try and find something to get this pain off me. How could anyone bear this. I alone, immensed in my own thoughts figuring out what do they want to tell me. To torment me forever and never leave me at ease??? I want a little peace, thats all I ask. Enough of going through so much pain and so much tears at night. Enough of laughter when I could laugh no longer. Enough of hurt when I could hold on no longer. I see people being hurt and then consoling them, telling them its okay and everything will be okay when I know it never will be. Sometimes, lies are better that the truths. My walls are crumbling on me, leaving me no where to escape. Please put my burden at ease.

i swear really swear not to write anymore emo stuff.. =]