Holding onto that thin line

Still holding on to whats left of my solemn body....



I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

Stepping out through a new world

Pink sunsets with yellow smiles

Clear serene waters like the river Nil

And falling leaves upon the ground

Plucked gently, they fall without sound

So beautiful were they, flashing with colour

Of hues from and some more other

They stay with you as though they bother

You take a glimpse of things so sombre

These memories vivid within me

I dug in deep in which to see

The things that I could never foresee

That I have once held the key

And through this long meandering past

I know this beauty will never last

Never know why I took this task

To be hiding behind that dark black mask

Some were sweet with some so pain

And like darkness you want them slain

These memories still they could be tame

But all together, they're all the same

So here is where i still lay

Silently waiting the end of the day

And as it turns to another say

These memories still come finding their way

Though not as if I care

That the day was never fair

To see that path that wanted wear

To be trod on as though its there

And so finally in the end

There were only footprints in the sand

Would you let me take you hand

And journey back to where memories land

Everything's still...

It was never for me to want.

I didn't ask for the impossible. I didn't ask for the humiliation. But it seems the things i asked was too much for you. I never asked for anything that you are unable to accomplish but such little things, such petty acts, you could not pull them off. Why? You owe me half the time i have sacrificed for your better sake. And for that each moment you've taken, i never wanted them back. These things i had to go through, these thoughts i have to slay. And you still never ever thought of giving me back what was once a part of my dignity. To give me back something small and insignificant to you, but meant the world to me. I deserved something more. You have everything and yet I have nothing.

Today, is the very day i turn sixteen. Thank you to those who have remembered them and thank you to those who have wished me. They mean alot to me. Mum has finally gotten me a cake for my sweet sixteen. Its now 6.51p.m and before i know it, the day will soon be over. And the time that remained special throughout this day, i gratefully thank those who have made them even more special.

Dawn's breaking

So bored bored bored. Had the banner drawing competition today. Was having fun splatting paint everywhere. The results were not bad. In fact, I loved what we've done. =]
AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! I finally got my guitar. Fine, its not brand new or shiny or cool. Its mine thats all that matters. I love it love it love it. Thank you Hao Min!! I feel like an idiot holding the guitar sometimes, cause i don't know how to play it yet. Dads gonna put in new strings and then tune it for me, then teach me how to play.. AWESOME!!
Breaking dawn is out people, so please don't tell me any spoilers because I want the thrills there and the suspense too. Edward Cullen is hot hot hot. XD

ohh, just wanna wish Yu Xin a Happy Birthday for tomorrow is her birthday.

Happy Birthday Yu Xin!!!

Hari Koko marching practices
hahahaaaaa... Lim Ai Ni

Can't wait for surprises. =)

Life and its inevitable ways

lalala... I know you love my blog layout because I love it too!!!! hahaa.

THANK YOU PUA SZE YIN!!!!! banyak banyak muaxxx... xp

Couldn't update blog cause busy with stuff, now am currently rushing to type some crap in to show you I've been blogging and yeah, thats about it. I love my blog =] Can't help but bragging.

Today I was sitting in class like a crazy duck cuz we had five free periods and thats too much free periods at once. Tomorrow theres this banner competition thingi and we get to skip for 3 hours, not that its good or anything. But, a little recreational time for me to get away from sejarah.. Urgh, so sick of listening bout Nabi Muhammad and his "interesting" life. Bahh, I really rather read chinese history though.

Having a really bad stomach so excuse the really really random post, though I am still in my sanest mind. =]

Till then......

My world as it is

I feel as if everything now is really really just drifting apart, my friends and family.
The silence between our worlds starts growing and eating away the bonds that linked us together like bacteria. Eating away everything slowly and quietly.
Maybe thats what I think, or maybe thats just how i feel lately. the reassurance once there is now gone just when I needed it most. I'm moving away, fading into the background of a picture or a blue part in the skies. My boat is floating endlessly to nowhere, no destination , just bobbing along above the dark frightening waters.
I feel as if i were in pieces waiting for someone to come along and piece me back up to how I was before.

Life should be lived as it is, like I've always said. Its true that maybe the things I said I could never follow. But what am I to say, I am human after all.

Tagged

The last person to tag you is?
Wenyi and Khoy Yan and Yin

What relationship of you with him/her?
Khoy Yan: classmates
Wen: good friends
Yin: happy crazy friends

Your 5 impressions towards him/her?
Khoy Yan: cute, funny, friendly, helpful, scout lover (really really obsessed)
Wen: loyal, kind, helpful, funny, another scout lover xp
Yin: funny, funny, funny, funny and helpful =] (my blog skin)

The most memorable thing that he/she has done to you?
Khoy Yan: talking and accompanying me when I was alone
Wen: standing by my side when no one else would
Yin: err.. help me with my blog..hahaa

The most memorable words that he/she has say to you?
Khoy Yan: memorable?? words--too many
Wen: wenyi gives memorable words?? hahaa....
Yin: I'll help you with ur blog

If he/she becomes your lover, you will..
Khoy Yan: shake her vigorously and start screaming "are you in your right mind!!!"
Wen: send her for brain surgery
Yin: splash her face with cold water

If he/she becomes your enemy, you will..
Khoy Yan: impossible, too sweet to be one
Wen: my enemy??? not possible
Yin: never..hahaa too funny

If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on..
Khoy Yan: errr...height?? xp
Wen: opening herself up
Yin: err.. I dont know

If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is..
Khoy Yan: never do chinese homework??!!?
Wen: errr....turning to the other side. but still not possible
Yin: she never help me with my blog skin =]

The most desirable things to do for he/she?
Khoy Yan: Do chinese homework
Wen: I wish I knew what is there to do
Yin: gives her a kiss.. muah

The overall impression to he/her is..
Khoy Yan: Cute!!! xiao mei mei.. haha
Wen: forever loyal and true to herself
Yin: FUNNY!!!!!! wheeeeeeeee

How do you think the people around you will feel about her?
Khoy Yan: adorable and friendly
Wen: the ultimate friend
Yin: all that a friend should be

The character for yourself is?
It depends on which side you're on

On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
the part where I could never open up and forever doubting everyone

The most ideal person you want to be is?
Myself =]

For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them..
ermm..thanks for the unending support given

10 people to tag:
1) Ai Ni
2)Derrick
3)Wen Han
4)Yinky
5)Whitney
6)Xi Ning
7)Ai Pei
8)Ming Yao
9)Vin Yi
10)Amanda Leong

Who is No. 2 having relationship with?
err.. whitney?? ( husband and wife ) xp

Is No. 3 a female or a male?
hahaa...give a guess. Male

If No.7 and 10 be together would it be a good thing?
errr... I don't think so

How about No. 5 and 8?
hahaa..not unless the world went wrong

What is No. 1 studying about?
Ai Ni.. accounts I suppose

When was the last time you had a chat with them?you mean msn?
Ai Ni-2 minutes ago
the rest....( didn't go online for bout two weeks )