I am unconditionally and irrevocably in love with you

I am in love?? yess hahaa. Random isn't it??

School is finally starting and my boring days are sooo over. Can't wait for sports day..lol

I am so addicted to twilight and new moon. I just love I mean lurve to read gthem all over and over again..lols

I'm still very angry at some certain person which I think Lai Yee would only know but I hope that she won't tell annyone though.

Yesterday at art class, hahaa the fun of it. I finally finished my strawberries and my 3 picture art.. Then we had another assignment, and that is paint something really random. I'm serious bout the random part..hahaa. Me and TamTam were like picking up paintbrushes and just paint away...lol. TamTam was like painting big big colour bubbles and I was painting random spikes all over the place....Then I added strawberries and Lai Yee said they look like evil strawberries...So in the end, we just wasted paint and time but needless to say it was really fun. Lai yee drew funny cactus with an egg for a sun..at least that is what I think it is....LOLS.

Result:

The reign of evil strawberries by gwen.. =)

Tonight is JunYen's big BIG burfday bash and everyone, well nearly everyone was talking about it. With catering and semi-formal outfits..lol..So so poshy..The way I would like to put it. Everyones excited bout it...I may not really know her well but hey...

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN JUNYEN!!!!!

lols

Never again

I sometimes try once, just once to fit in. When I do, I just come right out again. I can't help feeling pity for myself why can't I be like others, just being laidback and enjoying life. No. No I can't. I try. But I never do suceed do I. I still try to hide behind others because I'm afraid. I always am afraid.

I can't believe how hard it is to stop me from loving you

Went to the gathering yesterday..was sooo nervous dont know how they look like now. Bu tin the end I did find out. Peir Ee wa so excited n seeing my friends, but she had to go to work...lol too bad. Was walking like crazy in 1u. Then met up with them and they went to wong kok to eat...we were like talking and talking and the stupid waiter and waitress didn't even come to ask for our order...they sooo shitty larr.. so we all were like putting up our hands like some lil kid again...

But still they didn't take our orders so we just stood up and walked away..lol

Then we went scouring for other places, me and shera went to look for someone then met up with them..can you believe it..We sort of like got lost in 1u haha.. We couldn't find the place we were suppose to go. LOL. In the end Joyee came and find us and took us to the restaurant...

Talk talk talk yada yada yada, then we went bowling...Oh oh ya I saw Melvin with some of our ex-form fives. And and I saw Jen Ai too..she got 9A1s and 1 B3..So good...my gosh...yesterday the SPM results came out so yeah...tears of joy and...ya tears...

After bowling..went home..me only.yup.early..too early in fact..Whitney and Yinky were at 1u and they stopped by the bowling alley and yeah saw my friends and yah...sayed one word..one word only...LALA....haha. And that pretty much wraps up my day....

PINKY PIRATE...CUTENESS

Feelin blue

Tomorrow is gathering party, then Thursday is outing with Yinky which I much MUCH prefer....
So pick one...which one???!!!! I 'm feeling blue and also worried bout my add maths. Gotta kill Encik ravi for making me wait.URGH!!! Yellow house pom-pom practice still no news. And I am stranded at home here wanting to go out so badly...haiyo...feeling mellow and sooo sleepy..hahaa
As for someone out there I can;t wait to see when I get back on track..hahaa..okay being a lil crazy right noe but still holding myself....

Staying sixteen forever and ever

My phone and cousin'sPoms-poms on my table..wow look at them...hahaa

Full of sheety tuitions and can you believe that I can't wait to go to school again. Yess i know I can't believe that I'm saying that. Oh by the way, I finally bought the twilight saga...haha so happpiiie MAN!!!! I have finally own it. Well except the third book la, just wait..I am gonna get it. LOLS..

Dad is getting into tempers these days...jeezz, gonna give him the silent treatment..

My cousin's name for your information. hahaa we were having dinner then there were like massive amounts of carrote left over so we took it and started cutting shapes..haha lolhahaa, both of us just being fabulous. Got a little bored so started doing stuff with my art block and a marker pen...

My cousin was like snapping away telling me to look where I'm suppose to look. Desperate people calls for desperate times..we were bored of our bones....wait does that even sound right??

Haaha yes Edward Cullen the fictional character in a book. I just love the way he is being described and what he went through for someone he loves but cannot be with..okay m

ay be being obsessive over him, but what can you do bout it.haa

why?

Is the world being harsh on me or what these days..
It wasn't even my freakinn fault and ypu have to like what avoid me all day like I am some kind of a damn plague..then you later ask me to help you find your freakin shit book.
What do you take me for huh?? some thing dat will let you put your anger on and then do your bidding..do it yourself and don't even try to act like nothing is going on. DAMN IT!!!!!!

I wish there was someone whom I could have fun with, my one friend i could confide in , camwhored with, go out with and celebrate with. Just that special someone who will always be with me and let me in on everything. Someone who will mean the world to me. Just absolutely everything. It will just be us against the world. Just when I thought I found one, shes someone else already.

"roses and butterflies"
Tomorrow is music exam. The exam that I have been trying to squeeze my time into. And finally tomorrow its going to be over..lolss
Got into a sort of fight with mum and dad today. Over costumes for pom-pom. haha lol
Had to pay aisya RM130 for outfits from zara..and I dun even know how it looks like and of it even suits me.....
The depths i go for cheerleading. Dad was like dun need to join at all, quit because he doesn't want to pay that kind nof money and starts lecturing me on spoilt kids..DAMN IT!!!! whats ur damn problem??? everything i do comes with a price. Its not me who decides k.

I have finally fallen in love and I am sure dis time. I know we may never be cuz I'm not much of a someone. But talking to you and seeing you from afar makes my heart content.This is a secret i keep to myself. I will tell when it' s time.

your presence reincarnates my once dead soul

CHOOOO
bluweks...my results are sooo going down the drain.
I am sooo angry at everything and everyone around me and I hide myself for soo long I forgot how to be really happy anymore. I can't stay angry all the time because then I will be my past self again...which I am trying to avoid now. results now are making me sooo depressed... life itself is making me soo depressed. I tried. No matter how much I change on the outside, its still me and I hate it. I try hard, really i do.
i'm boiling up and no one can stop me now.
BOOM!!!!
haih. first before i go, I must tell whitney and yinky this...You guys are everything to me, please dont leave me in school alone k!!!!!
Sweet sixten burfdays going round, seems to be the talk of everyone these days.......




Just seeing you from afar makes my heart content