Feelin blue

Tomorrow is gathering party, then Thursday is outing with Yinky which I much MUCH prefer....
So pick one...which one???!!!! I 'm feeling blue and also worried bout my add maths. Gotta kill Encik ravi for making me wait.URGH!!! Yellow house pom-pom practice still no news. And I am stranded at home here wanting to go out so badly...haiyo...feeling mellow and sooo sleepy..hahaa
As for someone out there I can;t wait to see when I get back on track..hahaa..okay being a lil crazy right noe but still holding myself....

Staying sixteen forever and ever

My phone and cousin'sPoms-poms on my table..wow look at them...hahaa

Full of sheety tuitions and can you believe that I can't wait to go to school again. Yess i know I can't believe that I'm saying that. Oh by the way, I finally bought the twilight saga...haha so happpiiie MAN!!!! I have finally own it. Well except the third book la, just wait..I am gonna get it. LOLS..

Dad is getting into tempers these days...jeezz, gonna give him the silent treatment..

My cousin's name for your information. hahaa we were having dinner then there were like massive amounts of carrote left over so we took it and started cutting shapes..haha lolhahaa, both of us just being fabulous. Got a little bored so started doing stuff with my art block and a marker pen...

My cousin was like snapping away telling me to look where I'm suppose to look. Desperate people calls for desperate times..we were bored of our bones....wait does that even sound right??

Haaha yes Edward Cullen the fictional character in a book. I just love the way he is being described and what he went through for someone he loves but cannot be with..okay m

ay be being obsessive over him, but what can you do bout it.haa

why?

Is the world being harsh on me or what these days..
It wasn't even my freakinn fault and ypu have to like what avoid me all day like I am some kind of a damn plague..then you later ask me to help you find your freakin shit book.
What do you take me for huh?? some thing dat will let you put your anger on and then do your bidding..do it yourself and don't even try to act like nothing is going on. DAMN IT!!!!!!

I wish there was someone whom I could have fun with, my one friend i could confide in , camwhored with, go out with and celebrate with. Just that special someone who will always be with me and let me in on everything. Someone who will mean the world to me. Just absolutely everything. It will just be us against the world. Just when I thought I found one, shes someone else already.

"roses and butterflies"
Tomorrow is music exam. The exam that I have been trying to squeeze my time into. And finally tomorrow its going to be over..lolss
Got into a sort of fight with mum and dad today. Over costumes for pom-pom. haha lol
Had to pay aisya RM130 for outfits from zara..and I dun even know how it looks like and of it even suits me.....
The depths i go for cheerleading. Dad was like dun need to join at all, quit because he doesn't want to pay that kind nof money and starts lecturing me on spoilt kids..DAMN IT!!!! whats ur damn problem??? everything i do comes with a price. Its not me who decides k.

I have finally fallen in love and I am sure dis time. I know we may never be cuz I'm not much of a someone. But talking to you and seeing you from afar makes my heart content.This is a secret i keep to myself. I will tell when it' s time.

your presence reincarnates my once dead soul

CHOOOO
bluweks...my results are sooo going down the drain.
I am sooo angry at everything and everyone around me and I hide myself for soo long I forgot how to be really happy anymore. I can't stay angry all the time because then I will be my past self again...which I am trying to avoid now. results now are making me sooo depressed... life itself is making me soo depressed. I tried. No matter how much I change on the outside, its still me and I hate it. I try hard, really i do.
i'm boiling up and no one can stop me now.
BOOM!!!!
haih. first before i go, I must tell whitney and yinky this...You guys are everything to me, please dont leave me in school alone k!!!!!
Sweet sixten burfdays going round, seems to be the talk of everyone these days.......




Just seeing you from afar makes my heart content

Sober for me

Lets reminisce the good old times...................................

There was suppose to be yellow house practice today, but the destination was closed so change to ttdi then school and finally nothing. People please please tell me beforehand about your practice time and discuss it with me thank you.

Exam sucks thats all I can say. I am sooooo doomed. Filling my head with little thoughts now and then again. All those subjective questions like moral and sejarah..oh ohh and bio are filled with shrap (as tan ying calls them). Missed her randomness and humour. She called me just last Wed and we talked for one looooooooooong hour bout flirts and fluts and florts.....well ya stuff like that and bout determining tha gender of her latest burfday pressie, a hamster name oreo.... Why oreo, no idea but its quite a gud name though for a hamster. haha. lol

Thursday physics tuition and every other thursday night from now on... Funny yam pey and random me. By the way, do you know that the british language for decceleratinng is retardation..hahaha. yes so instead of saying deccelerate we say retardate.haha

So tired from thinking bout everything and studies as well. workbooks.workbooks.workbooks.
Exam finished yesterday and people went to 1u. And did I go..noooooooo.And why because my mum wants me to stay home and sleep.BAH. sleep????

Chinese tuition today and more studying...urgh. So eager to go out and shop shop shop.
23rd of march go to cineleisure to watch charm cheer competition and some other international teams perform.... not sure what time is it though....please do infrom me of anybody knows...thank you

One thing remains

One thing remains
So warm and tender
Your heart abandoned
Your wall now perishing
Like bad dreams in cold December
Nothing but ashes remain

To you i did surrender....

I am not what I seem to be
I'm shrouded and cloaked by darkness
held by creatures of the damned
Lying eternally in the deep night
Stars gleamed above my head
Shining hope on those who never gave up
Toxins fell from cursed lips
Speaking nothing of goodness but evil
Nothing may seem to be it
And the truth will never breakthrough
No matter how hard you've fought
I can never go back to what I once was
As I carve for unpleasant temptations
Desire creeps over silently
Something that may not be
For the craving for lust have swept me over
Leaving me wanting of more

I'm captured by your resonating light

Time time time. The last few days were juz horrible, I mean horrible for me. Everyone was so busy with the anugerah cemerlang thing and the meeting. They were gonna bombard pengetua with like questions about everything I hope...*winks* Classes were empty and there were like so many students walking around everywhere.

Just known a fact that actually shocked me, and it was the last thing I ever expected. Charm cheer workshop was yesterday and it was tiring. And ........

Well I don't want to complete that sentence..

Sumthin is goin on between ppl and I have no idea wat is dat...no one is telling and everything else is being in the shadows. And yes one person can really get sick of that.

I know I can get too sentimental sometimes...so what

Please just let me be......let me be who i want to be

And no I'm not lala. getting really bored lately besides having to worry bout my parents reading my blog, exams and sumthing else.

want to try to get drunk lately but failed to do so.

Result= getting a really bad headache and cranky

Mcflurry= normal and nothing unusual, but inside......

hahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaasort of "permed" my hair...actually its more of a diy

baileys mixed drink...love the whisky-ish chocolatey taste of it....some seriously random picture of me....My sweet sixteen fantasy.......

My work of art....on my sis's face..haha thanks!!!!

My once clear notebook.......

People can be so unpredictable,

Guess I'm not the only one being sentimental

Only you are on my mind no one else